December 10, 2015
Today has been an exhausting day. We had many errands to run and it physically wore out my body. My bones are aching. My muscles are sore. My feet and hands have stiffening aches and often swell. Today’s activities did not help.
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I was in pain a majority of the day, but, as usual, I just smiled and tried to enjoy my day with my husband and children. They are so wonderful. I hate to miss time with them just because I’m in pain.
Now, as I wait for the women’s bible study to start, I sit in pain.
Every part hurts.
Having my clothes on hurts. It feels as though my jeans are cutting into my skin. I just want to put on my pajamas, lie on the couch, and watch television. Instead, I sit and watch the minutes tick by as I contemplate even leaving the house.
It’s 5:22 pm. The women’s bible study starts at 6:30 pm.
Tick. Tick. Tick.
Surely, I can cancel? Sounds easy enough, but it’s not that easy.
I’ve been wanting to participate in a bible study group for the past year.
I long to connect with others that share my love and passion for the Lord. I want to connect with others about parts of the bible I want to know more about. I want fellowship, which our Lord urges us to do. I want to fulfill that spiritual loneliness. I want a bible study group.
So do I want to go? Spiritually, yes!!
Does my body want to go? Nope!
So, WHAT DO I DO?!
Disclaimer: Please understand that everyone is different in their journey with fibromyalgia and/or chronic illness. This is my journey, my stories, my vulnerability to share with you in order to help in some way. It is in no way to compare my journey with yours or to minimize your pains, feelings, or experiences. Please do not comment with any negativity.