February 8, 2015
Today was a low pain day. It may be a low pain day because yesterday was a low stress and relaxation day. It may be that I got to sleep in. Or it may be that my eating and sleeping have improved lately so today resulted in a low pain day. Whatever the reason I was happy to have it.
In other news, I ran into my keyboarding teacher from high school while I was at the store today. She remembered me and it was a pleasant conversation.
As with most of my conversations, we started talking about God, which churches we attended, and where we were on our spiritual paths. She was baptized years ago and me last spring. We both shared a love for the Lord and his blessings; however, she opened my eyes to something new.
As I was telling her about my blog, my pain, and how I pray about my pain she asked if I have prayed for healing. I thought for a moment then realized that I have never prayed for healing. She looked confused then asked me what it is that I pray about when I pray about my pain.
I told her that when I’m praying in the mornings, or routinely, I thank the Lord for my body regardless of its condition. I thank Him for giving me peace in the pain when I need it and when I seek it. I pray for Him to guide me to help others.
And when I’m in a flare or my nerves are particularly hurtful, I pray for comfort and understanding.
She asked why I don’t pray for him to heal me. Well, frankly, I never thought to ask for that. I know that if I seek I shall find, ask and I’ll receive, but I never thought to pray for healing.
I feel that through my pain and experiences that I can help others, and I’m accepting of that. But what if I asked to be healed and it was granted? Would I be less effective at helping others? Would my pain and experiences be less helpful to guiding others to comfort and leading less painful lives?
No, it wouldn’t.
So…why haven’t I prayed for healing?
Disclaimer: Please understand that everyone is different in their journey with fibromyalgia and/or chronic illness. This is my journey, my stories, my vulnerability to share with you in order to help in some way. It is in no way to compare my journey with yours or to minimize your pains, feelings, or experiences. Please do not comment with any negativity.